Another ultrasound

Last night I drove out to Centerville. My aunt Penny and my cousins wife Sara have started their own little jewlery business, and last night they had an earring party. Even though I dont wear earrings I was happy to support them (and it was a lot of fun to see them too). I took Grant with me and on the drive home we had the sweetest little talk about how much he loves his baby sister already! I told him that she has already cost us more and caused mommy and daddy more anxiety than he ever did (which he found very funny), but mommy and daddy love her too and we already think of her as a member of our family!! When we got home we went through our bedtime routine and got Grant all settled in, as Jared and I went to go to bed I had to use the bathroom and I was bleeding. Tears started falling down my cheeks and I just sat there for a while. Obviously when you are pregnant bleeding is not a good thing. When I told Jared I could tell that he was concerned but he is so strong for me and he knows me well enough to know that is what I need. He just put his arm around me and told me that everything was going to be ok, then he held me while I had a little freakout-meltdown session. As soon as he had me settled my next instinct was that I needed to talk to my mom. You know in my eyes, my mom knows EVERYTHING (even if she doesnt) She always knows the right words to say to me. I guess after 27 years of being my mother she knows me pretty well. She told me that the worst thing for me to do is get all worked up and stressed. I needed to calm down and try to get some rest and I could call the doc in the morning. So that is what I TRIED to do. I went to bed and couldnt sleep so I went to Grants room and ran my fingers through his hair as I watched him peacefully sleep, I did a lot of praying and begging, and somehow I finally ended up falling asleep holding my sweet little boy's hand. As soon as I woke up this morning I called the nurse. She asked me several questions and said she wanted me to go in to get an ultrasound ASAP. I told her I wasnt even dressed and that it would take me about an hour to get there. So I threw my hair up and threw on some pants and took off to go get my husband. When I got up on the ultrasound table and she squirt that goop on my belly I had an overwhelming sense of peace come over me, like God was telling me "dont worry, everything is going to be okay" The technician told Grant he could come stand on the stool next to me. As I took my little Grant's hand I saw the amazing little flickering of our sweet baby's heart. I couldnt help but tear up and I was speechless. The tech pointed things out to us and she even printed out a picture, although the baby is so tiny you cant see much. She checked my ovaries, which are great and then she found a "spot". It was a black spot about the same size as the amniotic sack and it was right next to my little baby. She couldnt tell me exactly what it was but she did say that is where the blood was coming from and that it is not a good thing, but thats all she could tell us. After having the radiologist read the ultrasound the nurse called to let me know that it is a hemorrhage on my uterus, and no it is not a good thing but it is not something to get all worked up about. If I take it easy it should just repair itself and go away, thats what we are hoping anyway. The bleeding has somewhat tapered off a little today, which is good. I am supposed to call the nurse immediately if the bleeding picks up at all, and I HAVE TO TAKE IT EASY!!!
I know I have asked for a lot of prayers in the past but please pray for us. That my uterus is strong enough to sustain this pregnancy and carry our sweet baby to term. Thank you to everyone for all your support. We love you!

I am in love...

And I don't care who knows it!

I am so in love with this sweet boy! When I found out I was pregnant with him it was a surprise, but it was the most amazing surprise! When he was born it was love at first sight. And my love has grown leaps and bounds every day since then. I love my boy more than ANYTHING!

I wonder....

Do I have enough love to go around?

I wonder.....

How will I ever love another child as much as I love Grant?

I wonder.....

Is it even possible?

7 weeks

So here is what our amazing little baby looks like this week. This week she will go through a huge growth spurt. Last week she was about the size of a pea and this week she will be about the size of a large grape, she will more than doubled in size.

Your baby's leg and arm buds are longer now and they have divided into segments where the hands and feet will be. The hands and feet also have an area where the fingers and toes will begin to form. At this point of your pregnancy, the heart is bulging from the body and it has divided into right and left chambers. The brain's hemispheres are continuing to grow and the air passages into the lungs are visible. Your baby's eyes are beginning to get pigment. The nose is developing and the beginning of the face can be seen. The baby's abdomen is developing quickly and the appendix and pancreas are already present. Your baby's digestive tract is beginning to form and the hindgut is present. The shape of the tail can still be seen, but it will fade in 3 or 4 weeks.

These are some pictures I found of how quickly the hands and feet will be developing this week. I think it is so interesting.

Hand at 48 days

 

Hand at 51 days. Only 3 days later.

Foot at 51 days.

Foot at 60 days. Only 9 days later.

There is not a lot to report this week,which is a good thing. Other than the fact that I am having a hard time sleeping and it is frustrating.

6 weeks

Well I am now 6 weeks pregnant. I feel great other than being a little more tired than usual. For Jared and I both it is still very very surreal. We are both wondering when the reality of this is going to hit us. Dont get me wrong we are thrilled, just still in shock I guess. Grant is beyond thrilled and has already started talking to my tummy. It is the cutest thing ever, I cant wait until he can feel her kicking! I know that my babies will have an anamazing bond just like me and my little brother.
Most of you know that we have been trying for 5 years. Through this whole "trying for 5 years" proccess it has been so hard for me. I went through periods of doubting my ability as a woman and doubting my faith in God. I had many other doubts, regrets and "what-ifs" but through everything my amazing husband always believed. He believed in me, he beleived in God's plan, he beleived that everything was going to be fine and that when the time was right God would send our very special little princess to us. He has truly been my rock. And I love him even more for never giving up on this dream of expanding our family(even though I did a couple times) I honestly feel in my heart that this baby will be the princess we have been waiting for. So from now until we know for sure the sex, I am going to call our baby a her. (Jared and Grant and I already refer to her by her name) Here is what she looks like this week. Her eyes, ears, mouth, and nose are beginning to develope. Along with her intestines, pituitary gland, brain, muscles, and bones. Her heart has started to beat and blood is coursing through her tiny body. She is about 1/4 inch long.

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I'M PREGNANT!!!!

 

This is so surreal for me to be posting about being pregnant. It was so shocking to see the little positive line show up on the test and at first I didnt beleive it. We have waited so long for this and we are so thrilled!

Thursday morning I have an appointment for an early ultrasound. When I went to see the fertility specialist a couple months ago he was concerned that my tubes might be blocked, so they want to make sure that this is not an ectopic pregnancy. I am trying not to worry about it too much. I think everything is fine, but better safe than sorry.

I have been keeping track of everything and writing every detail down the past few monnths, so I know that we conceived on January 9th. According to the "all knowing internet"

If I conceived on Saturday January 9th 2010 then my due date is Saturday October 2nd 2010.

17 days have passed since the conception, and I have 249 days before my due date. I am 4 weeks and 3 days into my pregnancy,and have 36 weeks to go.

Here is a picture of what our baby looks like at this point. Grant thinks this is so creepy looking and doesnt quite understand why his baby brother or sister looks so much like an alien!

There have been some changes that I have noticed lately. I havent had any morning sickness, which is awesome and I am thankful for that but I have had some really bad, horrible headaches. I did check with the doctor and it is safe for me to take Tylenol and Tylenol PM. I really try not to take it very often, and even when I do take it the headaches dont go away they just subside a little.

The other thing is that I am already having cravings. Like I said in my last post I have been craving OJ. I have also been craving Bajio and Hot Tamales! Yum!

The other thing I have noticed is I am so tired by the end of the day. I have started going to bed when Grant does, even if I lay there and watch TV for a little bit. I wake up pretty bright and cheery in the morning but by mid afternoon I am dog tired! LOL

random....

I dont know what the deal is but I have been really craving OJ lately. Yum! I could drink a gallon a day, but I dont!

Jared's birthday!

For Jared's birthday this year we went to Texas Roadhouse for dinner. We love it there and it is so reasonably priced. My parents and my brother went with us and it was fun! They had never been there before and had been wanting to try it. They really liked it and it was a fun night together! This picture is of Grant sitting on the saddle that Jared was supposed to sit on while they sing to him, but he refused to!

Snow fun!

I just love this sweet little boy!

Really late New Year's post

We had so much fun playing games together!My cute brother BJ and his girlfriend CJOMG Isnt he so cute!And sillyA boy and his Papa!!!And man does he love his MaamaMy 2 boys!Grant got really tired before midnight, but he held out!Grant thought this was so fun!Welcome 2010Oh cute!