Mid-late September update

I havent blogged for a while. We have been somewhat busy and to tell you the truth I just havent been "in the mood" to blog. Well here I am forcing myself to give a little update for those who might care. I dont know if there are even any of you who do care that much but oh well. We went to the fair. As my Aunt's husband likes to call it the white trash fair. But we go every year and we love it. We always have a lot of fun together. It's kind of become a tradition for us. We have gone every year since the year that Grant was in my tummy. If that makes sense??? Anyway here is my grown up little man eating a what he considers mexican food. I had real mexican food, kind of? LOLThis is Grant on one of the rides. I went on it with him, only because I wanted to get pictures. I am glad I went. In this picture he looks a little retarded but you can see in his face what a ball he is having. It was so funny to listen to his cute laugh.

Last week Grant had his first field trip. We went to the zoo and we took Dax with us. So here are my little boys. This is probably the closest Grant will ever have to a brother. We really love Dax and he is a wonderful baby! It's funny Grant's teacher's name is Miss Maria but he calls her Miss Aria, so cute!
One night I had been out running some errands and when I came home Jared had ordered pizza and he and Grant were in the living room on the couch eating pizza on the TV tray. I came in and sat in front of the couch to talk to them. Grant got a bit excited and slipped off the couch sending the TV tray flying and the cup of marinara sauce he was using to dip his bread sticks in. This was the result. And this is what it looked like after cleaning it. Jared went to smith's and rented one of those rug doctor machines. It still looks like hell. Note to self: No 4 year olds eating in the living room, or just dont leave him home with dad anymore. LOL

My Aunt Diane passed away on Sept. 13. Thank God she did pass away peacefully. It was sudden and unexpected and we were all taken back and shocked by it. My Mommy was really upset about it and it was really hard for her. It was also really rough on her children, as it would be for any child having to say good bye to their mother so soon. The viewing was last Friday night and I really tried to prepare myself for it all day. I dont think you can ever really be prepared for something like that. Though I tried to prepare and I told myself I was going to be strong for my mom I wasnt. I was a wreck. It was a lot tougher than I thought it was going to be. Saturday morning we all gathered at the mortuary for a family prayer and to say our final good byes. WOW! I've never really experienced anything so heart wrenching. I've never had so many people I care so much about so sad around me. I was absolutely heart broken. From there we w ent on to the cemetery and they had the most beautiful grave side services. Each of Diane's kids spoke about her and I couldnt help but sit there and think about my own Mommy, who was sitting right next to me, hurting so badly for the loss of her sister and I know that she was also hurting for her nieces and nephews. My heart was aching for my cousins as well. And also for their children who will now grow up without their Grandma Diane in their lives. I kept thinking what would I do in their situation, if that was my mom my best friend, how would I react and what would I say about her, how would I live through the death of my mom? This is what I came up with... I wouldnt say anything because I know that I am not strong enough. I could not have gotten up in front of my family and spoke like my cousins did. They were so strong and brave. I dont ever want to find out but I am almost positive that I would not make it through the death of my mother. I know eventually it will happen but I hope it is not for a very long time.

I want my cousins to know that I am thinking about them every single day and my heart is aching for them. If you need anything or someone to talk to or just someone to lean on I would love to help, listen, or hold you. Any of you. I love you all.

We went to Snowbird for Brock's birthday. He is 19 now. Can you believe it? It was beautiful up there and we had a lot of fun. Some would even say I had a (little too much) fun. But I will deny it all. You have to remember it had been a really hard day full of many emotions and crying. I love this picture of my Daddy and my boy!

And I love this picture of my Mommy and my boy too.

Sorry this blog is so long and thanks for reading my ramblings. Love you all!

Please

Last time I did this I only got 2 addresses.
I promise I will not send you stupid crap that you do not want.
Only cute homemade cards and maybe a picture of my little guy every once in a while.
I would really love to have email addresses too.
So please just hurry and send me a little email to lilmonkey81@comcast.net including your mailing address and your email address.
I will love you forever if you do!
Thanks!

ZOO

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Late Night Ramblings

I havent been feeling right lately. I am not sure why? I cant even really explain it. I have a million different emotions going on all at once and I am not sure which are real and which are superficial. My aunt passed away over the weekend and it was unexpected. I know I am upset about that. I wasnt real close to her and I think that is part of the reson I am so upset. I wish that I would have seen her more often. I wish that I would have known her better. I can sit here and wish all I want but it is not going to bring her back. I have never really been faced with death before other than my grandpa and I wasnt real close to him either. When Cory passed away back in April it hit me pretty hard. You always hear people say it, but it is so true, you can not take one moment for granted. I used to be really outgoing and I am not sure what happened but somewhere along the way I became very antisocial. I want to try to change that in some ways. I want to TRY to keep in contact with more family members and hopefully TRY to get together with my extended family more often. We all used to be so close and I know people grow up and start families of their own (I did) and life gets crazy busy. But when all is said and done all you will have at the end is family. I told Jared that we also need to make more of an effort to see his family more often, especially his mom. Like I said things are hectic but we really are going to TRY! After rambling about all that I still dont know exactly what it is that I am feeling but I wish it would stop. I dont like it. It is not a good feeling.

Well I love you all! Good night!

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Help Me Out!!

I love to make and send cards and things and I am trying to update my address book.
I would really love to have addresses for all of the family and friends that I talk to online. So if you are reading this please email me and send me your address.

My email is lilmonkey81@comcast.net

This would really help me out and then I can send you cards and such for the holidays. Everyone likes to get something other than bills or junk mail!

Been a while

I know it has been a while since I have blogged. We have been pretty busy around here. Grant started school and is loving it. I, on the other hand, am not. But I am glad that he enjoys it. We went to the fair. That was a lot of fun. We are going to buy me a new car so we have been searching for one that will satisfy Jared's very high standards. I think work has been rough for Jar lately but we are all looking forward to our cruise at the beginning of the year! I am excited because I am going to start watching a new baby girl in a few weeks. She was just born a couple days ago and her mom sent me pictures. She is so cute with tons of black hair. So that should be fun. That's all for now. Hopefully I will update again soon!