A baby will make
love stronger,
days shorter,
nights longer,
bank accounts smaller,
home happier,
clothes shabbier,
the past forgotten,
and the future worth living for.
A friend of mine, who I look up to and adore, wrote on her blog that the process of writing is not just to express thought but rather to discover thought. So I thought I would give it a try. Here it goes...
For so long now it has been just the three of us.
We prayed and hoped and prayed some more.
When we found out our prayers had finally been answered we were elated.
This has been a rough pregnancy.
Now I am down to the wire.
Why am I feeling this way right now?
Will I be able to love Grayson enough?
Is Grant going to think that his baby brother has taken his place in my heart?
It would devestate me if Grant thinks I love Grayson more than him.
Will Grant still want to cuddle me if Grayson needs cuddles too?
Is Grant going to be jealous?
Will I have enough patience for 2 kids?
Will I be able to handle this without going insane?
Is my sweet Grant ready to share his mommy and daddy?
Have I done enough to prepare him?
Are we doing the right thing?
Am I ready for this?
I think I am.
I think I have plenty of love to go around.
I think Grant will ALWAYS love to cuddle mommy.
I think I can keep myself from going insane.
I think we have prepared him as well as possible.
I think Grayson will fit right in here.
And I know that we are doing the right thing!
1 comment:
babies99Oh by the way it is way to late to second guess this! It is gonna happen and real soon! Do you think you were cheated out of love and cuddles when your bro. came into our family? You loved him as much as any of us! And so will Grant! You worry to much! Relax everything is gonna work out great! There is sooooo much love to go around. You will know when each one of your boys needs more than the other, It will change daily but I know in my heart you better than anyone will know! You are a awesome mommy! And you will only get better with age!And if you ever feel unsure of yourself you know who to call!!!! I love you so much! You can do this!
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