My Grandma

I remember when I was young, sleeping over at Grandma's house with all of my girl cousins that I was close in age with. We would all camp out on the floor in the living room and watch movies all night, giggling and munching on movie snacks. The four of us had some fun sleepovers at Grandma and Grandpa's. Man, there are so many great memories I have of Grandma! When I was young, Grandma made porcelain dolls, amazing beautiful porcelain dolls! She would enter them in the state fair and she would take me to the fair to watch the judging. I always thought it was so neat when Grandma won first place. She made me a cabbage patch doll with a porcelain face, it had pretty green eyes and long curly brown hair just like me. I loved that doll and never played with her cause I wanted her to stay nice. My Grandma has also always loved elephants! That is where I got my love for elephants. I love to collect them and they always remind me of her. My Grandma always had a great sense of humor, she could always make me laugh. When I was about 14 she took me and my cousin Jen to Disneyland and Knott's Berry Farm. We had so much fun! I was Grandma's first grandchild to get married and I also gave her her first great-grandchild. She absolutely adored my little man and it always made me so happy to know that!

About a year ago Grandma was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. We wre all very upset by this. Over the past year Grandma went through many different treatments and it was hard on her and the family. Cancer is so horrible. Not long ago she was able to go to Europe with her sister and daughter and some other family. Though she was sick she did have a lot of fun. It seems like after she got home it was all downhill from there. Some people live with cancer for many many years and sometimes the cancer takes over so quickly it leaves your head spinning. They found a tumor that measured 22cm and was full of cancer. It soon filled her abdomen and took over completely. In the past couple weeks I was able to spend some quality time with Grandma and I am so grateful for those moments I had, that I will remember forever. Grandma peacefully passed away in her sleep early this morning. The past week or so she has been in so much pain and has really been suffering. I am so sad to see her go, but I am also so glad that she is no longer in pain and she is happy and healed. I would like to think that she is in my Grandpa's arms again, where she should be! And maybe she is cuddling my sweet baby boy for me before he joins us here. This is hard and I have been crying a lot. It is really hard to see my mom lose her mom. My mom is so strong and such a great example to me.

I love you Grandma! I will miss you more than you will know. Thank you for all the great memories and thank you for just being the amazing woman you were!
-- Until we meet again! XOXO