It's not all rainbows and sunshine all the time. For the most part I have always used this blog to highlight the wonderful joys that we share as a family. I love posting here about how amizingly blessed my life is. I have the most amazing husband who works so incredibly hard and puts up with alot of shit at work to take good care of Grant and I. He is such a wonderful daddy and treats me like a (very spoiled) princess. I was also blessed with the most incredible little boy who has a very infectous laugh and always keeps me laughing with his crazy imagination. He is so cuddly and loving and tells me everyday how much he loves me. I grew up with the greatest parents ever, I think I had a close to perfect childhood, with the exception that for almost 8 years I was an only child. Then my little brother was born and I was thrilled, I hated being an only child. I have pretty awesome in-laws as well and I know that they would do anything for us!
Jared and Grant and I love being a family and we love spending time together. I have said it before and I will say it again, like my blog title says "We are a very happy little family."
But... there is something missing in our lives. There is a puzzle peice missing and there is a hole in my heart. Lately the hole seems to be growing at an incredible rate and I am not really sure what to do about it. We know that our family is not complete but the odds are against us. We have been trying for 5 years to have another baby. It is devastating to me and I am so emotional lately about everything. The longing for another child is begining to consume me and I feel like I am almost loosing control of it. I am constantly thinking about it, talking about it, and researching options. I know as much as my hubby wants a baby too, he is getting sick of hearing my constant obsessions and I am pretty sure my mom and others around me are getting tired of hearing about it as well. Like I said I am at a loss for what to do next.
Please help me. If you have any advice or anything please do share.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
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4 comments:
Stay strong, dont ever give up! I love you all! Mom
I just told my friend the other day that blogs are only filled with the good things people want to tell about them and I think it's wrong. I could tell you a lot of crap, but the best thing is just keep praying ;)
Hang in there babe! When it's meant to be it will happen!! I know you guys will be blessed with another little angel!! I have no doubt in my mind. Maybe she is just so special God isn't ready for her to leave heaven yet! ;) Keep your chin up and please let me be your shoulder anytime you need one!!! Love you girly!!
Hang in there Lauri. Just try and be positive and keep busy.
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