Most people occasionally feel nervous meeting a new person or speaking in front of a group. People with social anxiety disorder (SAD), however, become overwhelmingly anxious and self-conscious even in everyday social situations.
This is me. I have never really told anyone other than those very very close to me. I dont understand it myself so I dont expect others to understand it. But it is getting to a point where I think I could be hurting or offending some people that I really care about.
One of my biggest problems is the phone. Have you ever called me and not gotten a call back? Well first off let me say I am sorry. Im sure I got your call and if you left a message Im sure I got that too, but if you didnt recieve a phone call back I just couldnt bring myself to do it. I dont know why??? I just HATE the phone. It makes me very anxious and I will sit there for a long time debating whether I should pick up the phone and make the call, and I always talk myself out of it. I dont make any phone calls I dont have to. My husband does it all. He calls to order take out, he calls to make Grant and ME doctor appointments, I got a ticket and he even called on that for me. If I have to make the call and Jared cant do it for me I will put it off for days sometimes even weeks. Sometimes I dont even call my own mother back, so please dont take it personal. If you really want to get a hold of me the best thing to do is text me.
It's not just the phone though. It's other social situations too. especially face to face, one on one. I get so anxious and nervous to see people even if I am close to them. I absolutely love to go scrapbooking with my sister-in-laws, but I worry about it and have anxiety over it for days before we go. I dont know why??? I really hate to be in large groups of people I havent seen for a long time. Well I hate being in large groups no matter who it is, even family. I get nervous about any kind of social situation. Makes me so crazy. It's not because I dont want to see people, I just get so anxious about it.
Well now the entire world knows. If I have offended anyone in anyway because of this I am really sorry. Please let me know if I have so I can apologize to you personally. This not just some excuse. This is very real for me. I am working on it but it is hard.
2 comments:
I know it is hard to admit this, you are so strong to do that. I am proud of you!
Everyone has fears and phobias, letting others in on "your secret" can help them support and understand you. Sometimes even just letting it out is a relief and gets you on the path to healing.
I have a girlfriend who is frightened to death to fly on a plane. I don’t know if this is good advice or not, take it or leave it. She had someone tell her to just think of the worst possible thing that could happen (I know, like we all don’t fear flying just a smidge). She was told to “ just” let yourself be part of all that would be the complete consequence of that fear. She has flown 2 times this year with that help and a couple of cocktails. I know alcohol or Valium isn’t the answer but taking with your Dr. or getting a therapist (even for a couple of sessions) might help.
You can always email people now. Hang in there! You can do it!
I'm starting to think we are more alike than anyone ever thought. (which is pretty impressive) After spending most of our teenage lives on the phone, who knew we would both grow up terrified of phone conversations. I have to talk myself into it everytime I make a call.
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